Quiet

I am alive and well. Just haven't really had much to say. Or maybe, too much really. There has been a lot going on, but I just haven't had time to process it. That is probably not healthy, but WHATEVER. Or, maybe I am just lazy?

So, because I am struggling so much, I thought it best to create a list, because I really flourish in list-making. It may be one of my top-ten best traits. I am sure this trait will help me find a potential suitor when listed against all other single women. Please know that these things are just a brain dump and are in no particular order or category.

* Conscious Uncoupling. How bout that?? Gwyneth really knows how to be better than all of us in everything she does. (I am also going to point out that I accidentally typed Unconscious Coupling first. That's more my speed. AMIRIGHT?? High five! Anyone?)

* Running sucks right now. I have completely and totally lost motivation with it. And, I have stupidly signed up for the Mini Marathon in May. I have decided I am doing this for exercise purposes only, and not to accomplish any goals. In my crazy brain I thought I would be able to finish all of my training runs, no matter what, and at a very fast pace because I am highly motivated. Turns out. I am not highly motivated, and it is very difficult to get in all training runs when your gym is your garage, and the scenery is a furnace. 

* Snow. It has got to stop. I don't know if my heart can take it anymore. I am dying a little inside every time it snows this spring. I am reallllly trying to keep it together.

* Motivation. Where are you? I need to find it. Please send me some.

* I am doing probably 1000 times better now than I was a year ago. Sometimes I forget that. It's called perspective and every once in awhile I need some. I am much, much better. Hence, me complaining about mundane things now, when last year I was just struggling to breathe. I imagine that next year I will be better too? I hope so. It takes a lot of work.

* Sam is the most popular kid at his school. True story. He knows every kid, even the 8th graders. He loves it.

 * Abe is reading and writing like crazy. It makes me so very happy.

* I never feel like I get anything done. My life is an ongoing saga of being behind in all things. Even my DVRed shows (GASP!! I know. Where are my priorities?!?) My children are fed and taken care of, Ozzie is fed and taken care of, I have remained employed at my job, and my house has remained livable. That's about all I got. Things like mopping the floor and dusting the blinds have really taken a backseat to other things. But, soon I will catch up. Soon. I promise.

* I am officially a Mullally (again). That was a huge pain in my ass. But, I got to go to the City County Building (with Stephanie), and stand in front of a judge. I also got to tell him that instead of bringing my birth certificate, I brought my son's. Everyone in the courtroom laughed at that. I am a regular stand up comedian! Sam almost became a Mullally instead of me. I think he would have been okay with it.

 * I need a vacation very, very badly. See all of the points above. Maybe now I will write more? Who knows. I am sure there is some psychological reason why I am not writing right now. I hope to get back into the swing of things. This post sucks.