Emoting

Last night the movie “The Notebook” was on. I have seen it before, but for some reason it sounded like a great idea for me to watch it – even though it was 10:30 and I was completely exhausted. Well, after about 20 minutes into it, I was bawling like a baby. Why? I have no idea. At one point I think it was because they had such an innocent love! And Noah loved Ali SO MUCH! He was going to build a house for her! Then, when they broke up and that mean mom Joan Allen called him trash, it just made me so upset! Imagine someone calling my son trash! I just couldn’t take it! By then time Jake got up to bed he saw me laying in a pile of snot and tears and puffy eyes (a scene he has stumbled on one too many times before during many a late night movie viewings), he sort of laughed and then rubbed my back to make me feel better. Because you know, there is no consoling me, and I just. Cannot. Stop. Crying.

Also, I have been really pissed off lately. Like, you know, everything is pissing me off. Stupid insurance premiums, stupid car tune-ups, stupid Bears games. I hate it all. And, I don’t feel like exercising because I just don’t, and that stupid Gabrielle Reece pregnancy exercise video pissed me off because she is 6’2 and has a six pack on her 6-month pregnant belly. Yeah right. I am getting winded after 2 minutes and flailing around on my exercise ball, hoping I don’t fall flat on my face.

I think I am in need of centering my chi.