Exhale in progress

I have been very, very negligent to this blog, which in turn makes me feel guilty for not recording my children's lives properly. Because, as you can guess, I do not have a baby book of any kind -- this blog is it. So Internet, I hope you don't crumble one day because all of my kids' memories would be lost in a poof, and I would start making outrageous claims like Abe slept through the night at 1 month, and Sam was walking at 5 months, just because I couldn't remember. I also would like to remember myself looking younger, thinner, and more stylish.

Anyways, the last few weeks have been absolutely crazy in every way. From getting my health in check, not sleeping (Sam, are you EVER going to sleep without waking up, even just one time?), and crazy work events and hours (on my feet for 15 hours in one day is NOT COOL). And then, to top it off, Baba Jillsy decides to "go home" for more than two days. I mean, the NERVE!

Today is Sam's first day at daycare, and I feel like it took 2 hours of planning the night before to make sure that me, Abe, and Sam could make it out of the door during the morning hours. But, things went pretty well -- Abe woke up first, then Sam, and I was able to get my shower and dressed before both of them woke up. I am positive that this is not how it is going to go all of the time, but it was nice to have it go okay for the first day.

When we got to school, Abe had a harder time leaving the baby than I did. He was very upset that the baby could not be in his room. I tried to explain to him that he was in the room with big boys, and that the baby had to be in the room with the babies. As I was filling out paperwork I heard Abe talking to his teacher.

"I am so sad," Abe said.
"Why are you sad, Abe?" his teacher asked.
"Because I can't help my Mama."

I am not really sure what that meant, but OHMYGOD I am not sure if I ever loved that little boy more than that moment. He is such a tender-hearted little dude.

So, I hope to post more frequently and get some more photos up of Abe and Sam. Sam is just growing up so fast. It is really freaking me out. He is a giant baby, too, which makes him seem older. I am almost getting to the point where I am not in crazy survival mode, and I can sort of breathe again. But, we all know that that is subjective, because it will always be one thing or another.